This year I set myself the challenge to feel the fear and do it anyway. To not let my worries prevent me from grabbing opportunities that may help me or possibly even others.
I have a long standing unease with public speaking, probably stemming from a lack of confidence, and for most of my life, I have activity avoided situations that would ask this of me. I decided no more; no longer would I be scared, but instead I would try to embrace these situations and see where they took me.
From reading my blog you may or may not be aware that I have PND. I have been affected since having Baby and, although I manage it for the most part adequately, it is still present in my life. I don’t write about the illness much on my blog, as I prefer to look at the positives of my life. However, a few weeks ago I received an email from Mumsnet who were seeking mums with PND who hadn’t sought help immediately. I didn’t seek my Doctor’s help until Baby was 7 months old, so I responded, then thought nothing more about it.
Then, earlier this week I was approached to do an interview with the Daily Mail. It would be focusing on the recent research which found that a third of all PND sufferers do not seek help from a medical professional. They are prevented from doing so by fears of being judged, feeling like they are letting their families down or over concerns they will be deemed an unfit mother and possible run the risk of having their child taken away from them.
I chatted to the journalist and the article is on the Daily Mail online if you fancy a read. Some of the comments on this piece are shocking and shows what a long way we still have to go in terms of support and understanding around PND. It is an illness, just like a broken leg, only you can’t physically see the damage.
Just as I was getting over being in a national paper (albeit online) Mumsnet called again this time with a request for a live radio interview. Alas not with my personal favourite Grimmy, but with the equally lovely Anne Diamond on BBC Radio Berkshire. The words live….radio….interview would have previously had me running for the hills, but I played my ‘feel the fear and do it anyway‘ mantra in my head a few times and agreed, before I had time to change my mind.
I would like to say I felt like a pro, however in reality I was petrified. Anne was really lovely though and apart from one moment, when I heard Baby shouting from downstairs, causing me to become a little distracted, I think I sounded o.k.
Yesterday, I also did another radio interview for Jack FM (a local station). This was not live, but it is being used in a piece which will be aired today.
So there you have it, my first brush with the media and I can’t think of a more important topic to speak about. There is so much ignorance and it is partly this ignorance that prevents many women from seeking the help they need.
Thanks to Mumsnet for trusting me to speak on this subject and for making it happen.